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I remember,
When I was 14 or 15 ,
Daddy scolded me ,
I can't recall why ,
And I cried .. like a baby ,
In the middle of the night ,
Daddy came to my room ,
He lied down next to me ,
He hugged me from behind ,
And he said , sorry.








I remember,
When I was 17 ,
I fought with my mom ,
I accused her for not loving me as much as she should,
I cried ,
We both cried ,
She hugged me and kissed me ,
And said ,
I've always love you and care for you ,
You are my daughter.


I remember ,
It was this year ,
Somewhere in July ,
I dozed of early that night ,
The air-cond was on and so the fan ,
And I felt something ,
It was my younger sister ,
She covered me with a comforter ,
I was half-awaked ,
I said thank you sayang , good night , love you .

I remember,
I was admitted in SMC ,
I had a very terrible migrain ,
Mum & Dad were in JB ,
Abang took care of me for 3 days ,
And he brought me back to his place ,
He bought a bottle of Scott Emulsion ,
I took it, and he asked me to sleep.









I remember so many things they've done.
I can't remember any good deeds I've done.
God please grant my wishes.
I wanna be a better daughter to my Mum & Dad , and a better sister to my brother and my sister.

1 Call Away

I trusted you with all my heart.
U made me lost it once.
It's ok.
And I trusted you back.
But you're driving me insane.
You made my day, everyday.
But you replaced it by nasty fishy thoughts that keep on playing my mind.

You knew I need the strength.
As my faith fading , there goes my trust.

Tell me why.
Tell me how.

Love Notes

Mira dearie,


Tolong la tidur.
Its been more than 24hours tak bumbum .
Tidur la sayang.

Love you so much,
mirabuntalos.

p/s I'm losing my mind.And the weather annoys me.

Kerna Ku ♥ Kamu

Kerna Ku Sayang Kamu

Dygta

Seandainya kau ada disini denganku

Mungkin ’ku tak sendiri

Bayanganmu yg selalu menemaniku

Hiasi malam sepiku

Kuingin bersama dirimu

Kutak akan pernah berpaling darimu
walau kini kau jauh dariku
‘kan slalu kunanti
karena kusayang kamu

Hati ini selalu memanggil namamu
Dengarlah melatiku
Kuberjanji hanyalah untukmu cintaku
Takkan pernah ada yg lain

Adakah rindu di hatimu
Seperti rindu yg kurasa
Sanggupkah kuterus terlena
Tanpamu di sisiku
Kukan selalu menantimu

BumBum

6 a.m : Bumbum
8.20am : Wakey-wakey
9.15 : Off to Pharmaco class

.............................

Reached home.

Bubblebath.

Cook.

House.

America's Next Top Model.

.............................

Oh , missed.
Bloody cabinet hit my face. Oh, terbalik . Pfft!
Cut my finger while chopping onions. Thank you so much.
Got pissed with some other reasons.
Thank you again.

.............................

I need to sleep.
Help me , pretty please.

I need someone to punch me right on my face.


Goodnight.
Sleeptight.

Stay.

I was chatting with someone whom I forgot siapa , and he asked

' How was your day? '

and I replied

' Good '

And he said ,

' Define good '

I replied ,

' Enough sleep , and yummy lunch '

..................................................

That's it?

Sigh. Yeah , that's it. Pffttt! Enough sleep and nice lunch? Pathetic nye Mira.

Let me give u the real definitons of way hell of a good day .

You sleep , and you wake up WITHOUT any alarm.

Get ready , and get dressed WITHOUT concerning the weather.

Never care to find bus pass or Metro pass , instead , you drive.

Never care to keep your earphone's wire in your jacket , instead just turn on your radio while you're driving.

Mingles with your friends WITHOUT any language barriers.

Eat anywhere WITHOUT worrying either they're selling bacon free food or not.

And when you're back home and tired , food is always there.

You sleep when you want to.

Good? Maybe . If you're comparing to my current life routines here.

There are so many things I wanna do.

I want to ,

go OUT and PLAY.

But,

I have to ,

STAY.

and,

THIS I PROMISE YOU.

It is good to be visiting , but it is better to be at home.

Rumours

Rumours.

Who loves rumours?

I do! ;)

People will get confused and wondering what's exactly the truth.

I'm not gonna go around telling people what's exactly I'm up to , how am I doing and stuffs.

I don't care.

Losers can live with rumours.

And make your own conclusive assumptions which you hope can make you feel satisfied.

And again , I don't care.

Or should I?

mi manchi

Home is where my heart is.

Home is where my body and soul should be.

Shopping is Compulsory,

OMFG.
Mira!!!!!!!!! Please control your spendings.
Sheesh. In 3 weeks time :
MNG dress. jLo dress .
Topshop pumps . Replay pumps.
Topshop top . Bershka Jacket. jLo top.
Follie Follie watch.

And now she's aiming for Cerutti 1881-LED!
And can't stop browsing for more ;(

Okay.
Mira.
U have to buy a stethoscope now!
So start choosing now! Haha . I'm abit choosy wey. Took few days for me to decide which one I should get ( still haven't decide yet lol ) . But I'm taking Littmann's stethoscope for sure .




The pink one looks cute.
The all-black one looks smart.
The black+gold one looks smart with a lil bit of elegance.

Which look am I going for? Sigh~
Mira, learn to make decision and when you did , stop changing it.
You're being so fickle.

Life Goes On

When I was watching the first episode of Grey's Anatomy Season 6 , I heard quite a familiar name. Kubbler Ross. Yeah , we discussed about her in my Bioethics's class when I was in 2nd year. She identified the 'Stages of Grief '

1) DENIAL
Imagine if a young cheeky zippy and snappy human being been diagnosed and been told that he/she is suffering from cancer ! Let me put myself in that situation. God damn it. Wtf?! SIgh. Okay , I wonder how should I deal with that. I'll keep on asking God , 'Why me? ' or ' This isn't happening to me'..

2)ANGER
Should I? Maybe I should. Curse , curse and more curse.

3)BARGAINING
This is so me. ' I promise I'll smoke less ' . Well actually I wished for that when I suffered from sore throat for a month. LOL. It's just a fuc*ing sore throat. It's not even a chronic lung disease !

4)DEPRESSION
As time goes by , and what a Muslim should do is redha. It's fated. It's not like we're giving up , it's more likely to believe that everything has been planned by the hand of our God.

5)ACCEPTANCE
We accept when every single thing in our power has been done and yet nothing could cure the illness.

When we lost someone that we loved , I believe that our emotions will be very unstable and nothing really matters when it's happening to us. But , eventually , I do agree that acceptance is probably the last emotion felt.


Time is passing by without us noticing what we've left behind.
Appreciate your family.
Appericate your friends.
Appreciate everything around you.
As much as you could.
We'll never know.
What's next.

I would rather be able to appreciate things I can not have than to have things I am not able to appreciate ,Elbert Hubbard

My Online Diary.

Loads of stuffs happened since the last time i wrote here.hee.i thought i could manage my blog consistently,, tapi apakan daya.

So, let see what y'all hv missed. *wink*

1) Dinner at starlite diner with my boyfie , on 7th of April 2009 to celebrate our 7th month anniversary =)


1) My 21st birthday , 10th of April 2009

3.Boyfie's birthday on 21st of April =) I'm sooo not gonna post up a video of me singing birthday song for him.



4.Intervarsity games , a.k.a Volgames on 24-26th April.OMFG, the journey was urgh*. An appx 14 hours journey came up to 20hr journey due to the undeniably stupidity *pfffft* of orang-orang Rusia and our bus's condition.Huhu..I got 2 silvers as souvenirs for myself (futsal&handball).=) Hmm, nothin much to jot down here bout Volgames, but there's nothing way better than the MEDALS.Others , TERRIBLE.

my ' if u're happy and u know it ' futsal team.

Handball Team

5.2nd of May. MASSAD 09. - it's an annual dinner organized by 2nd year's students , which one of the main tentative of the event was to celebrate our 6yrs soon to be doctors. Got a dress oneee day before the event.Kudos to all 2nd years, the event was amazing.





6. Groupmates's Annual BBQ on 10th of May... The first time we did was last yr , right after spring started. This year's menu wasn't as much as last year's . Oh, 1 fact u guys have to know but our bbq , or my group =) , if one of our groupmates hook up with someone , and they couple up or whatsoever , meaaans , in any kind of gathering , that new guy@girl have to sponsor something, or should i say , 8 chickens , or few kgs of mutton? Lol. Well, it is our tradition =)